Tough enough?

Salam ramadan everyone.

Is your day going well?

I hope you have a good day.

I am currently on my mid sem break. Finally. After 12 consecutive weeks.

This semester is such a tough one. To tell you the truth, this semester is a whole disaster. I have 2 weeks left before final exam and when I mentioned it was already a whole disaster, I hope you get what I meant.

Previous semesters were tough but honestly this semester is super tough. I am mentally and physically exhausted. You know how I get motivated by my own words but I never been able to update anything on blog because I don't have that much time for leisure. I was too busy with event and assignments that I get tired easily and I always have a bone to pick with someone. I get criticized a lot and I was pressured. I was so demotivated.

Those criticism might come from my own fault. I thought I was professional enough but no. Things were so different here. I had so much fun organizing an event, doing last minute revision and I think I was able to sacrifice almost everything to become a successful multitasker. But now, I realize that I am no longer a good multitasker.

One thing that I should point out here is a sense of respect. I believe this is the term that makes everything so different than before. I even asked my fellow friends in Tapah. They thought the same thing. Everyone.  This is why, I don't want to put any expectations on people in the future. I don't think it will be worth it. I learnt a lot, thanks to you guys. 

I don't like to be a center of attraction but I like leading a group. I don't like to be sensitive and emo out of nowhere so I choose to become an understanding leader. I don't like to brag a lot about my experiences and achievement because no matter how much I brag about that, people will always think that I am lacking in those areas. I believe that I am a good leader back then. Now? No more. 

Remind me that I am not perfect. I can be at fault too.

Life is like a wheel. Sometimes on top sometimes at the bottom. 

Choose people that can help and guide you to be on top most of the time.

Be with people who can make you feel motivated to start your struggle everyday.

It's time to forgive and forget.

Act your age

Assalamualaikum.

I'm so ready to make a comeback to this blog! I haven't do any continuous update for quite some times and my passion to write has slowly gone. OMG. Commitment ain't no joke.

As you can see, the title of this post is ACT YOUR AGE means that.. if you are 12 years old, act like a 12 years old child but if you are 22 years old then don't act childish! I'm not saying that if you are currently at the age of 22, you have to be matured all the time. No. There is no such thing that prevents you to not act childish because You. May. Act. Childish. if it were meant for jokes ke or if you lepak with your family or close friends.. well that's okay. What I'm trying to say is that.. your MENTALITY. The way you handle certain problems or situation. 

I experienced this a lot. I'm 22 and still can be considered as young, am I? You might thought that I am not in the level or situation to talk about this but I have to. I really need to highlight this topic. Most of my close friends might know that I cannot stand people who doesn't act their age. I mean, why do you have to make things tougher while we can settle everything real quick?

You are a grown up ladies and guys, so why don't you try to accept things rationally? Why choose to be sensitive while you can actually just accept everything and think on a right track. Don't try to bring things up and act like everyone would symphatize with your situations. This action shows that you are so desperate. Such an attention seeker. For me, I define maturity as taking problems as one challenge and try to work things out the best you can. Do not make things worse especially when you ignore problems and never get them settled. Please. NEVER.

Try to consider people around you because if you make things worse then it will be harder for them too. Come on people.. it's 2018. Why should this mentality exist? You need to find any possible solutions whenever conflict exists and this is why two way communication is important! I myself think that ignorance is the best way to actually face this sort of people who have such a low mentality. Reason? Easy. The more you talk, the more childish they go. The more you persuade them, the sulkier they get. These people understand nothing and act like a victim so that people would always be there for them. Urghhh such a crybaby.

Talking to them is such a waste. Waste of time and energy. I cannot stand these sort of toxic people because they have always spoiled my good times and affected my work too. Can I just remove these toxic people and enjoy my life to the fullest? *Abracadabra* lol

Have you happened to face this kind of situation too? Are these type of people are close to you?

Comment below guys :) Let's share our concern. Sharing is caring!

Convocation Day

Assalamualaikum.

As I promised, I'm gonna do an update about several events that happened during my third semester and here it goes.. my convocation day! This takes place on 22th of October 2017 at UiTM Seri Iskandar, Perak. It was my very first experience to attend my own convocation and indeed, a memorable one.

I went there on Wednesday, 18th of October by ETS. I came 3 days earlier than the actual date because of rehearsal and of course, pre-convo shoot with le girls. We didn't hire any pro because we were pro enough lol kidding. We decided not to waste our money obviously. My friends and I slept over our bff's house at Teluk Intan.

The next day we all went to Seri Iskandar to take our jubah and the photoshoot beginsssss!

Although we were all tired after an all day becoming a non-paid models, we struggled to complete our assignments too at night. I was doing my journal summary and the others were busy with statistics and personal task. The date was so near to upcoming tests and submission date. We all can't help it but to 'multitask' the feelings inside and go through everything like..... ok let us just go with the flow. 

My parents came on Friday if I am not mistaken. My bro in law drove all the way from Seremban to Teluk Intan to pick me and drove again to SI. We all gathered at my friend's homestay until my convocation day. Thanks a lot for making everything easier since the start Zati :) Mama insisted to go to Teluk Batik so we took this chance to actually go there on Saturday. They meet their old friends there while my siblings and I were enjoying scenery in the car. Haha. It was super hot so we need air cond lol.

It was great to have a reunion with the batch! Most of them meet each others a lot because they pursue same courses and are studying in the same campus. I am quite special (i bragged about this a lot btw) because it is hard to meet me because I'm too far from them. We would never know when else we could gather together like this but inshaAllah, Allah gives us more rezq like this in the future. Thank you for another memory everyone! Thank you mama abah family for making this dream came true! Lavvv

DIPLOMA IN ACCOUNTANCY 🎓

..Alhamdulillah..

What's wrong with fangirling?

I hung out with my best friend last weekend and suddenly I had the intention to seek for the truth. We were in the car. She drove me back home.

"Have you ever be concern with my tweets?"

"Which tweet?"

"Kpop stuffs"

"Not even once. I rarely scroll my timeline. I only tweet whenever I feel like tweeting."

"Does fangirling over those K-pop idols make me look pathetic all the time?"

"Noooo. Who said that?"

That reaction. While driving. As a good friend of mine, I'm blessed.

Hehe.

"I feel sad and sometimes I think I look pathetic somehow I had no idea of what others think of me going crazy over those idols and making myself looks like an all time loner"

"Everybody has their own interest and passion. Not all fangirls out there are single"

"But you know I am"

"That's good. At least you won't have to feel insecure with your real life partner. He might feel distant when you're currently obsessed with idols"

Kaaaannnnnn.....

Eyy isn't that childish? Not me. You.

"Let them think what they want. You can't stop others from judging you. Buat lah apapun selagi mampu selagi belum puas asalkan tak melampaui batas"

She's right. I know my limit. Well, I know marriage and kids would be the biggest obstacles for me to continue fangirling in the future. Let me enjoy this fangirling life before I have to give it up someday.

 Bawal kind of day

Difficult time in life #31DaysBloggingChallenge

Broken friendship is somewhat unbearable. You know how difficult it is when it cannot be fix. At the end, goodbye means everything.

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Sometimes, honesty becomes a word that kills friendship.
You know why?
Because your emotion kills you and damages your friendship.
What kind of emotions?
Emotion which makes you pushes friends away more than any other.
Real honesty is sth you combined with real peacemaking.
However, people tend to avoid peacemaking and act the other way round and... I believe this is your definition of friendship?

I may not be a good friend to you, but I pray to Allah..

May everyday, every single minute, every seconds.. You would open your hearts to forgive and forget.

And I would like to beg your understanding..

Try to be in my shoes at least once..

Once is enough..

Then you'll understand,

Something I can't explain with words nor eyes..

But with hearts.

Eyes may not seem,

Ears may not heard,

Because heart knows everything you cannot see and hear.

What does PERSIDA meant to you #31DaysBloggingChallenge

A cure to my sickness

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Whenever I feel sick, I couldn't hold the pain, I feel very exhausted for constantly being sick;

they are the people who treat me more than a doctor treat his patients. They take good care of me and ease everything for me. They are the heal to my pain. They show me the strength. They remove everything that hurts me even if a thorn pricks me and even to that degree. 

A joy to my sadness

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Whenever I feel like bursting into tears, they are the spirits who come and tell me that I did well. It hurts me that sometimes I have to cry for no reason but they are the people who would never blame me for what I've done. I got so much hatred for not being concern with my surrounding but they are the people who convince me that I can live so much better with such hatred.

A peace to my suffers

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Whenever I feel like giving up because I couldn't bear to study without passion for years, they are the source of happiness. They are the people who cheer me up with their laughter. They are the people who bring inner strength for me to continue struggling. They fill my tough times with peace to get me back on track. 

Who is "Aina Zafirah Mohd Zulkifli" to me #31DaysBloggingChallenge

Friends are people whom we trust a lot and the source of spirit during ups and downs after family. They are one of the greatest person in need in everyone's life. A real friend works as a person who teach us how cruel the world is and also how enjoyable this life is if you choose the wise life direction. That's what you did!

When I first met you, it was at Annex Building on the last day of MDS. I am forcing myself to remember who started the conversation first as I'm typing this but still, I couldn't remember at all. I thought it was me. I was shocked to know that you were the same course as me because you probably know how hard it was to find course mates there since most of the freshie were art students. My first impression towards you would be someone who is quiet, untalkative and loves to study. Indeed, that's so true. You are putting so much effort on studies. However, quiet and untalkative do not suits your personality after knowing you all this while. It's not that you are a loud person. You are just not fond in communicating with someone you don't know.

Since the day we met, I have always thought that you are a person who have such strong personality and nobody can deny that. At first, I had a trouble on becoming a close friend to you because it seems like our personality did not match well. You were somewhat firm? Idk how to describe it but it was sth like that.

As days go by, I realized that both of us need to struggle on making this friendship better. We had to matchy matchy our personality so that everything would be so well. Alhamdulillah, we ate together, stayed in the library together, went back to college together, did assignment or group project together and also sleep in the same room together sometimes. Everything we did clearly helped our friendship to become better from time to time.

As a good friend of mine, I couldn't be more grateful and bless for having a chance to know you and be friend with you. With so much help you gave me, whether it is physically or mentally I thank you so much for those helps and only Allah can repay those to you. You are so good at everything and what I envy the most is the determination you have to always become a proud daughter and sister to your family. Despite your strong personality, you also have that sensitive side which make me feel like you need to expose your sadness to others too. It seems like your sadness have been made blind to others. 

Like what I've been always said to you and others, we might not meet again but trust me, I will never be able to forget our moments together for the two and a half years. Thank you for the help, advices, understanding, and cares you give me. Let's just not forget each other and keep in touch! And please, do not fall in love with my bias. Hiks. Saranghae!

Experience I will never forget #31DaysBloggingChallenge

Bila sebut pasal experience memang banyaklah. Dah 20 tahun hidup memang macam macam pengalaman dapat, hadap itu ini. Pengalaman pahit ada, manis pun ada. Tapi, untuk post kali ni I update pasal latest experience yang memang purrfeeectttt sebab betul-betul after I habis paper final diploma ☻

TRIP NOOB

Trip ni actually dah lama sangat plan. About a month ++ juga la ambil masa. Bukan sebab takes time sgt pun, tapi sebab clash dgn hectic life kitorang as final sem student. Macam-macam plan sebelum semua setuju nak pergi trip noob ni. Mulanya nak gather satu homestay after pre graduation night and bbq sama sama, lepas tu tak jadi mcm mana pula idea selepas tu I pun tak sure but at the end, sepakat nak pergi Frenzy Waterpark, Marina Island, Teluk Batik, Lumut, Perak. Hah panjang kan. Detail sis bagi!

None of us pernah jejak kaki dekat sini lagi. Sekadar usha gambar dekat instagram je sebab masa final sem tu la, Frenzy Waterpark ni famous. Boleh katakan semua student IPTA/IPTS area Perak ni dah atau akan sampai ke situ la. I sendiri pun tak sure bila start wujudnya Frenzy Waterpark ni tapi bagi I, kalau you guys nak short vacay sekejap sekejap dengan classmates memang highly recommended la sebab yang ala ala wipeout tu memang sesuai dengan teenagers or young adults.

Kitorang pergi 10 orang je, naik 2 kereta. From Tapah to Lumut ambil masa dalam 2 jam setengah juga la, plus minus berhenti and traffic jam. Itu kalau lalu jalan dalam la. Kalau ikutkan jalan yg satu lagi tu tak sampai 2 jam pun. Apartment memang puas sangat. Besar dan selesa. RM 528 per night, ada 3 bilik tidur, 3 bilik air, dapur, ruang tamu, balkoni, TV, seterika, dining table, etc.

Bertolak pukul 2.30, excited dia tak payah cerita lah memang everyone totally excited kan mentang-mentang baru habis last paper and grad diploma 😁 Sampai je dah asar. Solat asar terus turun main dekat Frenzy Waterpark tu. Situ memang safety first class sebab every checkpoint akan ada orang yg jaga. Jangan panik itu je then everything is gonna be okay. Oh by the way, kat sini boleh main sampai pukul 7 je and kalau hujan anda tak akan dibernarkan jejak sini langsung. Safety first! Air laut masin sangat so kalau jatuh tu tahan la ye. Alhamdulillah kaki panjang kurniaan Allah ni sangat membantu. Hee.

Malamnya, kitorang dinner dekat kedai makan area TLDM. Sempat la nak main Truth or Dare sebelum tunggu order. Hee. Situ memang santai sangat and berdepan dengan laut ke tasik lebih kurang macam tu la. Siap ada karaoke. Meriah dalam santai. Try imagine! Best kan. Balik tu singgah jalan-jalan area situ juga. Ada replika ikan besar. Dekat situ main "Capkalicap" tengah-tengah orang ramai. Serious tak malu langsung sebab happening je. Haha. Balik apartment sambung main Pepero Kiss pula. Barulah reti nak lelap. Lol.

 Pemandangan waktu malam dari balkoni apartment

Esok paginya after breakfast dekat hotel ramai ramai turun main swimming pool. Masa tu kitorang main bola beracun dalam swimming pool siap ada pistol air. Kecoh betul sampaikan orang ramai boleh confuse siapa kanak-kanak ribena dkt situ sebenarnya. Almost half pool kitorang conquer. Hehe. Check out pukul 11.30 lebih and terus gerak ke Pantai Teluk Batik. Bagi I, pantai dia biasa je. Kalau nak acah acah macam Sayangku Kapten Mukhriz bolehla juga. Eh? Mmg shooting area situ pun kan. Haha. Tapi, risiko nak burn tu mmg high la nampaknya. Panas betul!

Sekejap je bergambar and then berpisah la dua kereta. Satu kereta ke manjung ke mana eh lupalah, dan satu lagi terus balik ke Tapah. Sesat sekejap tau sebelum tu. Macam masuk hutan rimba dekat Kampar. Scary sangat tapi alhamdulillah safely arrived. Sampai je terus rushing packing barang sebab parents dah almost sampai nak pick up balik Perlis tercinta. Bukan senang nak gather ramai-ramai dengan my happy pills. Lagi-lagi bila 2,3 orang antara kitorang busy memanjang event sana sini nak curi masa keluar sekali tu payah sangat. Timing memang mengena dengan kepuasan yang sama-sama kita rasa. You guys patut pergi sini juga! 😃

My favourite quote #31DaysBloggingChallenge

"Teamwork makes the dream work" - John C Maxwell

Group hug 😍
Source : Twitter

Day 2! I just finished watching MAMA 2016 and I am so proud of my boys winning Best Dance Male Performance Group & Artist of The Year! 축하해요 Bangtan Sonyeondan ☺ Who would have thought BTS became the first artist not from 'Big 3' entertainment company to win Daesang Award? This is their second time btw, their first Daesang is on MMA 2016 (Album of The Year). You guys nailed it!!

From what I've known, they have been motivating themselves as a group with the quote above since years ago or perhaps since pre-debut. They did mentioned this quote in Twitter 2 years ago if I am not mistaken and many fans start to flashback all their achievements after all this time. Their hard work as a team paid off. As an idol coming from a small agency, it can be considered as real quick hah? That's teamwork. We can never deny the power of teamwork, everyone.

I do believe that teamwork is essential to bring success in someone's life. You cannot stand in this huge world alone. It is true that sometimes you have to learn to stand alone in your own both feet but how can you expect yourself to settle everything down on your own without the help of others? Even you want to go on a vacation or somewhere else, you need people around you to find certain place. Technology is limited guys. In this globalization era, you cannot depend too much on technology. It could make it worse. Does asking or talking to people at your surrounding even cause you a disease? Are you an anthropophobia or what?

I seriously do not understand people who easily put a mindset not to ask others for help and prefer doing something on their own. How can you be so timid while others are so willingly to lend a help? I noticed that these people thought themselves as a burdened to others and they also thought that others might want to take advantage for what they've done. These thoughts are so... hm what do you guys think?

I'm not joking. There's a personal reason I choose this quote. One of my friend is so into herself that I cannot explain how detailed she keeps on mentioning in social websites about how terrible her life is being surrounded by her friends. She wrote about it endlessly. Few people might show their sympathy towards her but for me, she is selfish. Proud of herself doing group assignment as an individual assignment and then send it to lecturer and ask lecturer for separate marks like seriously babe? What are you thinking about?

She is not even my group mates but I pity her members who need to struggle physically and mentally by having such a group mate. Nowadays, even teamwork got marks. If you feel so stress and you think all the burden on completing task is on you why don't you try to slow talk with other group mates so that they can be aware of your current hard situation. Don't keep it to yourselves. See! What happened? The worst part is you can still type 'hahahaha' and even put a smiley at the end of your words in Whatsapp group but you ended up curse them a lot in social websites. 

I acknowledge everything. We all, classmates clearly understand what's going on but we do not want to make things worse. I did mentioned this quote in Twitter with purpose to make her feel somewhat wronged for being like that but I guess that was too weak (I know she noticed my tweet). Many professionals, educated people, and even school children out there know that teamwork ease our task. Less difficulties but great achievement. Right? I've been so active working in teamwork since school and I think that is one of the best way to gain success. We can also become better persons who can adapt with such working environment as time goes by. Let's just not be selfish guys. Everyone needs everyone else in every single situation. People relying on each others and this is the world we live in. 

Indeed, teamwork makes the dream work 😄😄

"Janganlah kamu saling memutuskan silaturrahim, janganlah kamu saling belakang membelakangi, janganlah kamu saling benci-membenci dan janganlah kamu saling hasad menghasad. Sebaliknya jadilah kamu hamba hamba Allah yang bersaudara. Tidak halal bagi seorang Muslim itu memulaukan saudaranya (yang mukmin) melebihi 3 hari"