Why should I feel bad?

Assalamualaikum.

Hi everyone!

I have finished my final exam for my 4th semester about a month ago. Everything went well, Alhamdulillah. I'm not sure if I have regrets over anything but one thing for sure, I have given my 100% effort towards finals so I hope the results will come out excellently. Amin.

I have faced so many problems this semester mainly about friendships. I know I have updated about this not too long ago so you guys probably have read my post. I decided not to think about it anymore. I wanted to let my mind free from any things or problems that can lead me to stress. Thus, i choose to ignore. 

I wonder how I survived despite being so soft in the outside. I thought so. Well, there will be people who won't agree to this but I would say that I am soft enough to let almost everything ruined my days. I survived!

What I want to share today is actually about how I've been gaining interest towards reading compared to writing. These days I prefer reading so I took many options like Google PlayBooks, Online Reading Novels, English Novels Ebooks, etc. This is not-so-me tho. What happened? I am also not sure with myself. I guess my life has actually turned into a more exciting stories. New fresh path!

The latest short story that I read was "Why should I feel bad?"

You know what attracts me the most?

"I lost one who never loved me and she lost the one who really loved and cared for her. Tell me why should I feel bad?"

These are simple sentences but wow, it can give you goosebumps. I couldn't agree more. 

I believe that if someone doesn't love you as much as you love her or him, then he or she is the one who have definitely wasted the opportunity to be loved by such a sincere man on earth. So everyone, if you feel like clapping with one hand, it does not matter because God has actually showed you that you deserve more. You deserve better. He wants to give you a better person who would sincerely loves you too as much as you love her or him or probably more than that. 

Not everyone around you will give you a fair treatment. Not everyone will love you for who you are. Not everyone will accept you for your good and bad. Once you realize this, you'll understand, challenges are made for both sides. The sincere one, and the insincere one as well. Find those who genuine. Ignore the pretenders.

Be thankful! Both genuine and pretenders will help you to appreciate more. 

Act your age

Assalamualaikum.

I'm so ready to make a comeback to this blog! I haven't do any continuous update for quite some times and my passion to write has slowly gone. OMG. Commitment ain't no joke.

As you can see, the title of this post is ACT YOUR AGE means that.. if you are 12 years old, act like a 12 years old child but if you are 22 years old then don't act childish! I'm not saying that if you are currently at the age of 22, you have to be matured all the time. No. There is no such thing that prevents you to not act childish because You. May. Act. Childish. if it were meant for jokes ke or if you lepak with your family or close friends.. well that's okay. What I'm trying to say is that.. your MENTALITY. The way you handle certain problems or situation. 

I experienced this a lot. I'm 22 and still can be considered as young, am I? You might thought that I am not in the level or situation to talk about this but I have to. I really need to highlight this topic. Most of my close friends might know that I cannot stand people who doesn't act their age. I mean, why do you have to make things tougher while we can settle everything real quick?

You are a grown up ladies and guys, so why don't you try to accept things rationally? Why choose to be sensitive while you can actually just accept everything and think on a right track. Don't try to bring things up and act like everyone would symphatize with your situations. This action shows that you are so desperate. Such an attention seeker. For me, I define maturity as taking problems as one challenge and try to work things out the best you can. Do not make things worse especially when you ignore problems and never get them settled. Please. NEVER.

Try to consider people around you because if you make things worse then it will be harder for them too. Come on people.. it's 2018. Why should this mentality exist? You need to find any possible solutions whenever conflict exists and this is why two way communication is important! I myself think that ignorance is the best way to actually face this sort of people who have such a low mentality. Reason? Easy. The more you talk, the more childish they go. The more you persuade them, the sulkier they get. These people understand nothing and act like a victim so that people would always be there for them. Urghhh such a crybaby.

Talking to them is such a waste. Waste of time and energy. I cannot stand these sort of toxic people because they have always spoiled my good times and affected my work too. Can I just remove these toxic people and enjoy my life to the fullest? *Abracadabra* lol

Have you happened to face this kind of situation too? Are these type of people are close to you?

Comment below guys :) Let's share our concern. Sharing is caring!

Tips : Studying while listening to music?

Assalamualaikum ☺

It has been two weeks since I ended my first semester as a degree student. Everything happened so fast. I barely had time to breathe because it's busyness not business. I'm all excited to know whether I did well or not in this very first semester. Hopefully the results will come out well even though I don't feel like getting something excellent but as long as it can bring a smile to my parent's face, I'm totally okay with it. Amin.

Moving on to the topic. I'm going to talk about my habit which I think this one should be considered as my strength because recently, during final exam, my roommate asked me, "Can you study well while listening to music? Don't you feel distracted? Can you memorize well all the theories, all the facts you are currently reading?"

My answer would be,

YES! I can study better while listening to music.

NO! I don't feel distracted at all.

YES-NO! Haha. I can memorize facts most of the time but I can understand better without listening to music.

Honestly, I enjoy listening to music most of the time in 24/7. I think music is the best medium that you can use as the so-called-pills to avoid being sleepy while doing revision or memorizing facts. Normally, students listen to music while doing calculations but for me, I can listen to music no matter what subject I'm currently studying (theories, calculations, etc.) and I also believe that this is not a unique habit because I know there are many people out there who actually have the ability to listen to music while doing any revision.

One fact that I think you guys should believe is I can memorize even faster when I'm doing revision while listening to music compared to doing revision without music. And it always happens when I keep my earphones in. In my case, that is a better way in which I can concentrate. I prefer listening to music through earphones most of the time so it is absolutely necessary for me to bring my earphones wherever I go.

I don't think listening to music while studying is a distraction because distractions are everywhere. Even a pen that you are currently holding can be a distraction to you. Agree? It all depends on you. You need to maintain your grit. The true grit to be excellent in study.

So here, I prepare a few tips for those who would love to study while listening to music!

- Make sure the volume of the music is not too loud. You need to actually choose the suitable volume that you believe would help you concentrate better. Suitable enough to prevent you from being sleepy and give a chill to your brain!

- I recommend you guys to select songs that you are not really understand the meaning or the lyrics of the song. If you are non kpoppers, then you may have kpop songs as one of the choices. If you guys select the songs with a language that you are familiar with, you might sing along to the song and end up focusing to the song rather than your book. Ahahaha. You better not do this!

- Do not select rock or sentimental songs like piano version guys. Select songs that are just nice, not too catchy and can prevent sleepy. That is why my top track in playlist mostly kpop songs. They have the rhythm and not too rock. Their songs are not going to make you sleepy. Unless, you made a wrong choice. So, choose carefully! If you guys choose selawat, zikir... these are the best choices after all. I cannot deny :)

- You guys should listen a song or playlist from MP3. Avoid music videos and live performance videos. Please guys, especially kpop fans. I can't help myself from monitoring my bias dancing in the whole video. Ahaha.

- If you guys are not familiar with using earphones while studying please avoid using earphones or headphones while memorizing facts. Earphones can actually distract half of your focus while studying. I admit that I can memorize better and faster using earphones, but I can't understand the facts as fast as memorizing it. For example, a list of formula vs long verbal law facts. You can use earphones while memorizing formula but not the long verbal law facts. 

I had this habit for a very long time. Since I was in Form 2, I came to know so. I, myself find it hard to study without earphones in and I've been sacrificing my money just for new earphones 2-3 times in a year. However, I couldn't agree more with the last tips. Because we are currently fighting with two types of concentration. Books vs earphones. Which one should be your priority? You decide!

After a longgg update, I would like to clarify that studying while listening to music is actually not a good thing to do. It involves so many negative effects especially regarding you health. Mental and physical. Because this is multitasking. And multitasking is bad for self-improvement. However, I believe everyone of us can decide when we should listen to music or not while studying. Obviously when we are feeling sleepy, right?

So... until next time!

Thank you for reading :)

Boss vs Bossy

In this globalization era, bossy women are being acknowledged for their feminism and bossy actually becomes part of women's attractiveness. I personally think that being bossy is a need in women's life. There's already many female leaders out there who actually succeeded in proving so many people that women can lead and become reliable at particular point of view. I know there's still many things that limit females on lead but at least, we are already out from the phase of  'men lead women follow' that hit females' limit all the time.

As for me, the main reason for women to be a bit bossy is because we want to unleash the burden of being walked all over. No one loves being taken for granted right? Because it is super upsetting. Same goes to women's determination. Do not look down at women's tendency upon success. Back then, if you do poll or voting asking whether women deserves to be leaders or followers.. I would say 75 percent of them would most likely vote for followers. But no, not today. Women have reached another level where they can survive on their own.

Furthermore, a bossy women nowadays caught the eyes of many men out there! Bossy women seems independent and be able to make wise decision with their first class mindset. We are human. We are not perfect and we need somebody who can help us in decision making, and care for us with different roles and also a great multitasker at times.

As a female mainly being bossy makes you look annoying to certain person but if you tend to choose friendly work environment with your employees, I still believe that being a bit bossy is a need. Bossy is essential to create an effective working conditions that will enhance work performance. Is there anyone who would believe me if I say bossy is a talent? Yes. A talent that should not be wasted for you to become a high competence leader in the future.

http://www.yourtango.com/2015278607/12-reasons-bossy-women-make-the-best-wives

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2215963/Why-men-secretly-love-bossy-women.html

http://www.girlsaskguys.com/girls-behavior/q129829-why-do-guys-prefer-controlling-bossy-girlfriends

What's wrong with fangirling?

I hung out with my best friend last weekend and suddenly I had the intention to seek for the truth. We were in the car. She drove me back home.

"Have you ever be concern with my tweets?"

"Which tweet?"

"Kpop stuffs"

"Not even once. I rarely scroll my timeline. I only tweet whenever I feel like tweeting."

"Does fangirling over those K-pop idols make me look pathetic all the time?"

"Noooo. Who said that?"

That reaction. While driving. As a good friend of mine, I'm blessed.

Hehe.

"I feel sad and sometimes I think I look pathetic somehow I had no idea of what others think of me going crazy over those idols and making myself looks like an all time loner"

"Everybody has their own interest and passion. Not all fangirls out there are single"

"But you know I am"

"That's good. At least you won't have to feel insecure with your real life partner. He might feel distant when you're currently obsessed with idols"

Kaaaannnnnn.....

Eyy isn't that childish? Not me. You.

"Let them think what they want. You can't stop others from judging you. Buat lah apapun selagi mampu selagi belum puas asalkan tak melampaui batas"

She's right. I know my limit. Well, I know marriage and kids would be the biggest obstacles for me to continue fangirling in the future. Let me enjoy this fangirling life before I have to give it up someday.

 Bawal kind of day

How To Deal With A Liar Or Cheater

Assalamualaikum.

Hi guys. After a week I finally got an idea on what to update. Look at the title. You know that 'welcome home cheater' sign that goes viral along with random pick up lines from people all over the world? Haha. Yasss that's what I thought about and I think this deserves an update.

"Not all liars are cheaters, but you can’t be a cheater and not be a liar, the two go hand in hand" . Waittt, so what's the difference between lying and cheating? Here's the definition. Lying means you are telling a lie or omitting facts. You twist the real story and turns it into something that can benefit you or sometimes it could become the benefit to the person that you lied to. It could be good or bad. Meanwhile, cheating is more into actions. Actions speak louder than words right? That's what make cheating somewhat worse compared to lying because it could break someone's trust towards you. It does involve breaking the rules tho. (and relationship too)

I used to lie but I'm not sure if I used to cheat. But I've been cheated on. Ew what a scene. Thankfully, the situation wasn't too heartbreaking and I felt strong enough to bear with those cheating memories. So yea, I would like to share with you guys what I've been doing all this while to learn on forgive and forget.

First thing first, don't mind them. Let's just act like everything has never happened. You should act like you have never heard he or she lying or even caught them in cheating. Normally, this helps in strengthen your friendship. Hang on there. Remain calm and live your life like always even though you already know that they lied to you. But make sure to be aware of their existence. They might lie or cheat on you twice. We never know.

Next, be straightforward if it is necessary. You need to wait for the perfect timing to tell them the truth. It's not like you're making them look like a fool. People have their own limit in patience. Sometimes we can't hide our feelings and we find it difficult to control our tongue in being honest and direct. But it is not always good to be straightforward. The struggle to make the other party understand that we already caught them lying is seriously no joke. You gotta endure some tough times (even though it is not you who lied) lol

Be determined and prove them that they have made such wrong judgement on you making you look pathetic all this time. How could they take you for granted?? Prove them wrong! Strive to have a better life and show off how better your life is without living in a world full of lies and being cheated on. Don't blame yourselves for what they have done to you. You gotta have this feelings in becoming somebody new. Somebody who would never be a prisoner of your past.

The best thing to do to get rid of that liar or cheater (which I did and this works the best) is to not making any contact and make silent treatment. This is the best way once you feel like moving on. I bet this works the best in breaking up relationship. You should avoid that cheater if he or she has already cheated on you more than twice. Well, you can assume that this is more likely a silent revenge but being ignored is a cheater's biggest fear. They would think that they failed to fool you again and they would finally give up. Let that cheater at least feel guilty for making you look pathetic. (Well, they would if they still do not lose their good intentions and manners)

As for me, lying is somewhat considerable but cheating is unbearable. Don't approach me if you guys are going to approach with cheap lies and immature cheating act.

What to expect : Diploma In Accountancy

Assalamualaikum.

For today update, I'm going to share my opinions on accountancy as a whole as a diploma graduate. I'm not a pro. I don't even reach degree level. But since I already have the experience in becoming accountancy student, why not? 

What to expect when you are studying accountancy? At school, mostly pure science students would say accounting seems so much easier compared to their trio tough subjects; Bio, Physics, Chemistry. I don't mind. It's the truth anyway. Say what you're gonna say because it's your decision, it's my decision, it's our decision. We choose what's the best for us. If you like what you decide, then everything will be so much easier for you, right?!

I don't know what its like studying in other courses. But one thing that everyone should acknowledge in their life is learning starts with concept. I am so sure that 97% of high school students would assume that accountancy means calculations so you need to get ready that your brain will hundred percent works on calculations like.. only calculations will exist in your life sth like that. Nope. You guys are totally wrong.

Studying accountancy consists of theory, formula, format, analyzing, calculations, etc. Basically, most of the courses are the same. However, the mentality of accounting students themselves who think accounting is only related to calculations make it tougher from time to time. Calculations and format that you guys are working on in high school is just a tip of the iceberg. It helps you to practice yourselves on playing and brainstorming with the numbers so that you can feel more usual and ordinary with numerous numbers.

When you enter another stage of accounting, which is diploma.. you'll realize that theory is the most important thing as the key points of your understanding towards accountancy. How do you expect yourselves to solve accounting problems with great solutions when you don't even understand how it is conceptually developed? At school, most of students are memorizing the format and then pick the items listed and place them according to the right format. This shows how accountancy resembles puzzles so much. I don't know high school students nowadays but I was like that back then.

Throughout diploma journey, you'll realize how each items actually become an item. You will learn from the simplest concept which is debit and credit, and then it will become tougher and perhaps beyond your expectation. You will learn accounting in more depth because assets, revenue, account receivable, everything have its own chapter. They are not just an item guys. They are items which will develop your brain into a long journey. If you guys unable to follow or analyze the concept since the intro, it will be very hard to climb to the top. You guys sure know what I meant. Don't give up halfway through the journey. Keep going forward until you reach the top!

Don't be shocked if your notes are all in theory. You won't see numbers there but your notes will be full of sentences and accounting items. That's how you learn. You yourselves, will transfer those theory part into calculations once you finally understand what those theory actually means. You'll be very 'jakun' once you got a group project question because you need to think of the numerical solutions based on all the verbal theories you've learnt. There's no more picking out listed items into format. It's a battle of you and your theories resulted into calculations. It is somewhat similar to life. You are learning with theories most of the time but you act, live and work practically.

During diploma, you'll get to learn accounting in different aspect. There are costing, finance, taxation, statistics and even law, management, marketing and entrepreneurship too. I don't know about other IPTA/IPTS but UiTM listed these subjects as minor or sth like that. My all-time-fav subject is statistics because 85% is related to calculations. Hiks. Law is kinda tough for accounting students but I think these subjects that I've mentioned here are very helping because they will open your eyes to reality where you are living in. Because accounting is so much related to business and vice versa. You can experience how business works using the concept of accounting, law, management, etc as part of its essentials.

That's all for now. Good luck in whatever you are doing and your future undertakings! ☺

Day 28 #31DaysBloggingChallenge

Choose ; pretty face or pretty heart? And well of course la pretty heart kan. But why? Cause usually pretty face get treats better..

It is true sometimes people are treated differently by their looks. Of course good looking people are treated better. Because we live in the world where people basically judge us by looking at our physical appearance; not our manner and true heart. Having a good look doesn't mean you don't have a pretty heart. That's a bonus tho if you have both. Beauty is subjective. We can never measure how beautiful a person is because beauty is in the eye of beholder. A person's definition of beauty might be different to others. What important the most is official definition of beauty must consist of both, inside and outside.

I'm not that pretty but thankfully, not ugly either. Hiks☻ But I've been in the situation where I lack of good looking side compared to others that made me feel so disappointed with someone who clearly showed her unlikable towards me. That forced me to lose respect on her. She constantly showed that side of her on me for quite a long time and it was so irritating. I don't want to tell further about this because it actually does help me a lot in improving myself whether in appearance or self-confident. But tbh, please guys don't compare people with others because you never realize everyone's hidden beauty. It's not all about outside beauty that matters most of the time.

It is natural for human being to sense beauty at first sight. I feel the same way that makes me feel so insecure when scrolling Instagram's timeline. Photos of good looking people are here and there, You feel that too, right?! However, as I look back and start to flashback those memories of being compared and then I tell myself not to easily feel insecure because we have to fully acknowledge someone's real personality first before making any judgement on his or her appearance. 

You know why sometimes in drama or movies, beautiful people have this being left aside syndrome at the end? Because beautiful means nothing when it comes about manner. Manner controls everything in life. I'm not saying that beautiful people do not have manner at all noooo don't blame me. I'm just analyzing my thoughts based on what drama and movies have showed us before. It is useless to cover yourselves in that pretty face, great body and other physical attractions you have if your manner seems so vice versa with what you got.

Let me keep this simple for you to understand this well enough. Having pretty heart is the most beautiful things that worth your life and the people around you. 'Beauty isn't about having a pretty face it's about having a pretty mind, a pretty heart, and a pretty soul.' Have you heard this before? People won't like you if you keep on dissing others for what they lack of. Nobody likes you if you strictly keep on showing off your good looks but at the same time you are making others feel so embarrassed for knowing you. Having pretty heart means to act in a manner that is socially acceptable. Even without perfect appearance but with good manners, you make others feel so comfortable to be by your side. This is what it means by having pretty heart. How people treat you is based on your manners.

I am no good at having good manners tbh. Sometimes I am being criticized for my look and manners. I need to be better in both. I'm so grateful that Allah grant me this perfect normal looks, good physical and other rezeki that I couldn't feel more blessed. I'm trying so hard to take good care of these rezeki. May I be more thankful and be better at self-improvement in years ahead. Aamin. Whatever it is, don't bother others for not liking us. Take their judgement as the key to develop more success in the future. Everyone got that pretty heart. It's just us, ourselves who need to be aware of our surrounding and keep our manners within the line☺

Day 27 #31DaysBloggingChallenge

"What is your opinion about people yang tak boleh tengok orang senang? Sometimes some people sendiri tak sedar dia mcm tu and some people sendiri kadang-kadang taknak pun mcm tu but perasaan tu dtg sendiri. In other words, diorang ada masalah hati, so what is your suggestion or maybe idea untuk these people overcome it"

This is what we called as envy. Being envious sounds healthier compared to jealousy. Healthier here means the desire of making good competition among people. I don't think this one should be categorized as jealousy because jealousy ain't help much in building up your confidence. 

People often treat envy or jealousy as general concept in their daily life. I mean.. you know how people make themselves become so competitive when they see others having success? Sadly true. This has been the beginning of hatred phase in everyone's life nowadays. Actually, one's should have patience in every actions they do, every decision they make. Because we know exactly that we are never good enough. Then why don't we just gotta stop comparing ourselves with others? That's it.

There's only one thing that always get in my mind every time my brain starts to transfer envious into jealousy. Think about how others feel when they are being envious of your happiness, and then put yourselves in their shoes and think twice. What do they feel? If they are happy for you, you'll feel the same way towards them but if they are hurt as the unhealthy jealousy triggered between themselves, don't force yourself to feel the same way as they did. Learn to be grateful for what you got. People aren't same. We have different view, different aims, different preferences, and even different look. Aren't we?

I know how it feels like to be so envious with others' happiness. I'm obviously not a robot. I do have feelings too. At certain times, you gotta blame yourselves for not being able to achieve great things like others. Isn't it? However, as someone who has always need to bear with too much random thoughts, I've always remind myself to to stay put and let's just don't take that unhealthy feelings too seriously. Get a hold of yourself people!

I've always craving for a praise actually. But soon after realizing that praise are causing such hasty judgement on me, I started to be so-so and more easy going with myself. Getting praise won't make yourself happier because of the jealousy others have towards you. The impact of losing friends, and having enemies around you are unbearable. You gotta accept this because of the world we are living in right now. Perhaps this won't end until the world itself ends.

Appreciate your own talent and acknowledge your skills. I believe these help you feel more thankful with yourself ☺

Day 26 #31DaysBloggingChallenge

"Pernah dengar tak org buat mistake tapi put blame on others. Contoh paling dekat, kalau result exam tak okay, we put blame on lecturers sebab ajar and kita tak faham. Have you ever been in such situations? And what is your opinion on that. kalau dalam contoh situation tadi tu, should or shouldn't macam tu? And tu bagi ziera sendiri la kan, ziera rasa tu kira mcm kita blame others ke?"

It is so unfair if we blame others just because we want to hide our weakness or disadvantages. This question is really helping in self-reflection actually. Yes, that's true. We are blaming others in the situation. Memang ada kadang-kadang tu rasa macam if he or she acts better than this, I'll achieve somewhat better. Betul, kita memang tak patut judge kelemahan diri kita ke atas orang lain. Tapi tak semestinya, kelemahan diri kita tak ada bersangkut paut dengan orang tersebut langsung :')

Dalam hidup ni, ada dua perkara yang kita kena ingat dan ada dua juga perkara yang kita kena lupa. Ingat kebaikan orang pada kita dan kejahatan kita pada orang. Lupa kebaikan kita pada orang dan kejahatan orang pada kita. Ini je. Once kita berpegang dengan prinsip ni, everything goes smooth and well, inshaAllah.

Blaming others for not helping much isn't the best way to become a better one. Trust me. Sekalipun seseorang itu tak cukup kuat penangannya, tak cukup baik in giving benefits to us either knowledge, experience, etc.  just act like you received enough already and be satisfied with what you got. Be thankful at least because someone is kind enough to help you.

Macam contoh dalam soalan.. I am totally disagree kalau semua lecturers ajar bagus, faham and boleh dapat better results. No. Sometimes, wujud situasi di mana tenaga pengajar yang teknik mengajarnya tak sampai atau tak sesuai dengan sesetengah pelajar menyebabkan pelajar kurang faham and kurang senang dengan results that's why wujud ketidakpuasan hati sampai nak put blame on lecturers.

I've been in the situation until I lose my passion towards accountancy. Up till now, I feel sorry for putting blame on that lecturer. She did nothing wrong. She taught me so well but it was me who didn't struggle a lot and never put double effort into it. I don't mind if that's what written, I have to accept what has been decided for me. I understand that everything happens for reasons.

We never know whether the bad results fully caused by others. It could be your mistakes kan.  It's not like you own this whole world that you can never make a mistake in your life. Even a slightest mistake could probably because of your carelessness. Apa guna salahkan orang lain kalau salah diri sendiri depan mata pun tak nampak? Kalau macam tu, tak berkembang la potensi diri kita as a human being.

Basically if things keep going wrong in your life, try to redirect it to a right path. Putting blame on others ain't help yet make it worse.

Day 25 #31DaysBloggingChallenge

"In running, there are two type of runner; sprinter or marathon runner. A sprinter is believed to be spontaneous and get things done in a blink of an eye while a marathon runner tends to take time to finish it until the end. Same goes to writing online, writers either speak their mind spontaneously in twitter, facebook, etc or take time to develop a long essay to actually convey their thoughts. So in your opinion, which one gives the best idea in term of uniqueness and honesty?"

As someone who loves writing since young, I would say spontaneously is the best term to define uniqueness and honesty in writing. As a blogger, of course I need to do further research on few topics related to my blog post at certain times. I do research to figure out the important facts that should not be left out in my blog post so that the content would be far from nonsense. As far as I've known, bloggers and research are two things that are inseparable because doing research is part of blogging essentials, isn't it?

Doing research is indeed a process that takes such a long time and requires everyone to have patience and persistence. However, I personally think that a writing which is based on research is something that shouldn't be called as masterpiece. A masterpiece portrays an outstanding artistry skill of people whom taking every word written as a confession from their true feelings. Their heart and soul are hidden behind their writing.

If you think of yourselves as a masterpiece, that means you are a truly unique one and beyond everything, you are the life of arts empowered by grand existence of truth. These are uniqueness and honesty. See! If you take time to create a great writing it does not indicates the terms of uniqueness and honesty. That is what we called as an art resulted from brainstorming.

Writings which are full of honesty and uniqueness are somewhat connected from heart to heart. I do believe writers who speak their mind spontaneously are most likely writers who always bring a great masterpiece to the whole world 💌

How to know he is the one for you #31DaysBloggingChallenge

Tbh, the first thing I look at guys is their personality. I love to take personality quiz for fun and sometimes this question come out. If personality is not in the options, I'll choose hair. As a lady who hasn't married yet, I focus on guy's personality above all. My married sister told me that once you get married, the first thing you look at 'your guy' is his mind. Hahaha. Husbands don't always pick up what's going on wives mind but wives often have great abilities to read husband's mind ☻

For me, personality defines everything. You know, as we look thoroughly at someone's personality, we can know whether he/she is the right one isn't it? If his personality suits me and make me feel comfortable to be around him, I would say yes. Okayla, this one memang cliche but I couldn't deny. I can never say yes to someone who has different personality with me like totally different and that person refuses to change it or even get rid of it. I'm not trying to be selfish but if I still got chance to find a better one that match my personalities very well, why should I keep that person kan! 

I need someone who can make me feel secure mentally and physically. I say yes to someone who sincerely shows me how honored he is to have me as his wife. Sincere. Sincerity. I need to feel his sincerity first before making decision. Marriage is not an easy things to decide y'all. I can never accept a guy who keeps on giving lame excuses and can't be trust. He who clearly shows me zero sincerity. Urgh no way. He is just trying to make a way to a girl's heart and then break it into pieces. How can he lead me to a better future in such a playful marriage?

If he disagree with you, what will he do? This! Before marriage and after marriage are two different situation for couples. Two different expressions and actions will also happen but you are the one who need to decide and consider which one will overcome everything and still able to make both of you become deeply in love again and again. 

If he is the right one, not just me but my family should approve him as Mr.Right. I can't judge him by myself. My family, friends, people around me must always keep on remind me or tell me whether he is the best one or the bad one. Sometimes we can't fully depend on ourselves to find the correct person. Judgement by others should be considered too.

Me & K-pop #31DaysBloggingChallenge

The first time I got into K-pop was around 7 years ago. It was all started when my elder sister showed me a live performance video of Nobody by Wonder Girls. Their hand gesture went viral at that time aite! Right after that she introduced me to Super Junior. There were six to seven MV of Suju and some variety show of them. They were so hilarious and a bit naughty. Up till now, their charms are no joke. My bias is Lee Donghae. I like how innocent he is. He is so husband and daddy material. I can't wait to see him active again after completing his military service! 

My elder sister wasn't a fan but she enjoyed watching Korean variety shows especially We Got Married. I was so into it too. My favourite couple was Goguma Couple, Yonghwa & Seohyun. Back then, I only know certain K-pop songs through Astro Hitz. My first ever K-pop songs that attract me to become so passionate over K-pop was Love by CNBLUE. The melody, lyrics, their angelic voices, skills and talent.. everything was superb. Since then I've grown to love other K-pop groups too. FX, Suju, SNSD, TVXQ, SS501, MBLAQ, T-ara, Beast, etc. I have at least one bias in one idol group.

Those groups listed above are less active nowadays because so many rookies are becoming famous from day to day. Some of the famous group has officially disbanded and split due to their personal reason. Oh and most of the idols from those groups are now in charge of producing song, lyrics for other rookie groups in their company and they are currently active in acting too.

I got a question asking whether I am an Exo-L.. I would love to say yes, but that was long ago during Growl era. I love them because they have different charms and personality. Their variety skills are quite good especially Baekhyun. I am still a fan but not that much. I start to put them in my bias list after watching Exo Showtime. My first bias is Xiumin and then it changes to Baekhyun. Haha. I normally become so loyal with my bias but this group I really can't decide. I love Baek because of his voice. His dance is so powerful too. Non kpoppers might mistaken him as one of the dance line. How can a vocal line be so powerful at dance and great at singing at the same time? You kill it baek you did it! My top bias are usually main vocals tho. I love guys who can sing well but lemme tell you, Chanyeol is a bias wrecker. He ends his rap with 'braaahhhhh' with that husky gentle voice in Monster. Tell me, who doesn't melt?!

I am currently and yes, will forever be a big fan of BTS - Bangtan Sonyeondan (방탄소년단) but I'm not going to consider myself as ARMY because I realized that I do not deserve to be called like that since I do not go to their concert, I do not buy lightstick, sticker, album, etc. I follow their daily activities, I watch their performance, shows, concert and sometimes I vote for them in award shows. My bias is the choreography leader, J-Hope! He is soooo my type. Very kind and considerate yet so powerful in dancing, rapping and can sing well too (but you can't compare his singing skills to other vocals) He was born with talent and pretty face. I really hope his sexy forehead and black hair will be back again. Please stylist, bring back my sexy forehead & black-haired Jung Hoseok.

I am in love with INFINITE for two years already. They are really good at dancing especially scorpion dance. My favourite song is Back. I can listen to it continuously without getting bored. My ex-roommate can memorize the lyrics pretty well too even though she is not a K-pop fan. Haha. I can't remember how I become so attracted to them but I think it was because of Weekly Idol. Sunggyu is being teased a lot everytime they showed up in that show. My bias is Nam Woohyun. He is quite loud and over confident at times but his voice covers his flaws. You know it is so hard for a fan to ship their bias with someone else but this one, I really hope he'll get married to the leader of Apink one day ☺ I don't mind if there's a rumor saying they are secretly dating each other. Hahahaha. I'm craving for their interaction whenever they attended same music shows.

I am also a fan of Bigbang, Blackpink, Red Velvet, VIXX, GOT7, BTOB, Gfriend, Twice, Lovelyz, Apink, Sistar, and some other K-pop groups which I can't list here. There are so many of them. I love their songs and dance. The latest one is Very Very Very by IOI. Their dance is so cute and chic. Blood Sweat Tears (BTS), If You (Bigbang), Russian Roulette (RV), Hard Carry (GOT7), Whistle and Playing With Fire (Blackpink) are top tracks in my playlist.

"Loves yourselves before you love others" #31DaysBloggingChallenge

Everything seems perfect when you fell in love. Both sides have the feeling of protecting and be concern with each other. Like a lovebirds fly next to each other. They care nothing about their surrounding; they only know their way of making love.

Lately I've heard a lot of news regarding couples and most of them are pretty disappointing. News anyways. News never gonna face such bankruptcy if you all understand what I meant. Everything is going viral in this era. Sadly, teenagers are facing those disappointing moments which they assume as 'love'. This is what we called as Puppy Love Issues. Aiyee, what did they do wrong? They're just teenagers :(

Teenagers. Been there. So many teens were drawn to the puppy love story including myself. Ahaks. It's not that puppy love will not last long. No. There are many people out there who married to their puppy love. We can always expect sth to be real but everything was meant to be if Allah wills it.. However, expectations might end up giving you disappointment.

Don't love too much. Don't hope too much. Don't trust too much. Because that 'too much' will hurt you so much. I couldn't agree more. To ladies especially, please remember that YOLO! Make sure to achieve your dreams first and grab the chance to pursue your dreams to a higher level perhaps until you can't be more satisfied with your achievements. I don't blame people who had early marriage that they can't achieve what they want but somehow it is known like that.

Why are you volunteering yourself to limit your success in the future if you still got a chance to do great in years ahead? Is that your kind of love definition in your life dictionary? Love does need sacrifices but if both really understands the meaning of sacrifices in love itself, they will surely think rationally about their future. Love yourself first if you want your future partner to be happy with your marriage later.

Are you hoping too much that you are so afraid of losing? Does marriage help to end your insecurities? No! Your immature thinking would probably harm you later. Why should you be so scared of losing her/him if both of you have decided to stay together? Loves means nothing if you say that. You are having trust issues, not loves. What about trust? Don't you trust each other? Then why bother about time? Everybody already been set their soulmate by Allah. If you hook up to Him, He will hook you up.

Can't you imagine yourself becoming a well-known person with great personality, rich and educated? Who doesn't want to be like that? If you work hard, you'll achieve these and you could repay back all sacrifices and kindness to both of your parents. Yes, they want you to be happy with a marriage and have own family but can't you see deep in their heart they are hoping for your success before getting into new stage of life called marriage.

I believe that as you love yourselves, you will automatically feel the need of success and achievements. Put those as priority. Partner will be next next priority because you guys will never know when will the 'tied-the-knot' day comes. After marriage, your partner, family is your top priority. Work hard to maintain your marriage. Fall in love everyday. Enjoy the success you gained before. Be proud of your success and tell your kids how you guys made it and end with a marriage. Continue to have achieve your dreams together after becoming married couple and enjoy this new stage of life ☺

Love yourself because no one is going to love you like you do!

3 Favourite drama I never get sick of watching #31DaysBloggingChallenge

Love You Mr Arrogant

Drama ni adalah satu-satunya drama yang paling lama bertahan dalam laptop I. Tak akan pernah delete drama ni. Tak ingat drama ni bila ditayangkan yang pasti dekat TV3 pukul 7. Kalau tak silap masa lepas I habis SPM. Drama ni memang kalau I bosan takde latest drama nak layan, I repeat yang ni je. I pernah layan drama ni semalaman tak tidur sebab roommates I semua takde hari tu so I takut tidur sorang malam and this drama peneman I. Haha. I suka Zara Zya punya watak sebab bersahaja dan sempoi walaupun banyak dugaan dan pengorbanan dia hadapi. Character hero drama ni (Azlee Khairi) mmg taste I sangat sebab tu tak pernah jemu layan nakal-nakal caring dia. Ego tu mahal! 😁

Eyes Of Me (Kaew Tah Pee)

The only Thai drama yang bagi I jalan cerita dia mmg unik and unexpected. Khun Nu, satu-satunya pewaris tunggal harta keluarganya tetapi buta yang disalah anggap sebagai orang miskin oleh seorang wanita, Khun Nathlada yang baru heartbroken. Bila Khun Nu tu nak uji Khun Lada tu sanggup tak untuk kahwin dgn orang buta yang miskin macam dia, bermulalah episod yang penuh konflik dan romantis! Apatah lagi bila mata Khun Nu dah sembuh dan boleh melihat seperti biasa he lied to everyone and act like the surgery was not a success. Hiks. Kakak I yang kenalkan drama ni masa I Form 3 kot. I pun tak sure la. Years ago. Kalau nak compare dgn Thai lakorn modern skrg yang banyak adegan tak sepatutnya I rasa drama ni memang highly recommended. Berlakon dekat France guys! Tak rugi you guys tengok.

Boarding House Number 24

I memang K-drama lover but I'm a picky person so kalau plot certain drama tu tak capai standard I sebagai penonton yang agak banyak songeh ni memang I tak habiskan. Haha. Unless hero drama tu famous macam Lee Minho, Lee Jongsuk or kpop idols. I suggest you guys untuk tengok this k-drama sebab drama ni sangat sangat kelakar and susah nak jumpa drama yang berkisahkan 6 orang pemuda pemudi stay satu rumah yg sama & ada perwatakan berbeza-beza ni. I baru je tengok drama ni but tengok sekejap pun dah addicted. First impression I I ingat drama ni ala ala variety show. I bagi 5 bintang sebab drama ni buat I kenal & terus minat VIXX Ken. He's so talented and good at singing.

How do I evaluate myself #31DaysBloggingChallenge

According to Google, evaluate means judge, assess, rate, estimate, etc. Talking about how do I evaluate myself, I would love to highlight the word 'effort' instead of 'achievement' here. Why effort? Why not achievement?

Somebody once asked this to me.. "you know why you give up or feel down about sth so easily?" and I asked back, "was that because I lack of being grateful to Allah?" and then she answered, "Because you care too much on your achievement rather than appreciating your own effort"

Achievement is based on your effort. Your endeavor. Your effort is based on how you would wish it to be. Whether it will just be so-so, excellent or vice versa. One thing people should realize is that effort might satisfy you at the end but in certain times or situations, effort might also make you feel unsatisfied at the same time. What should us be worried about if there's dissatisfaction on our effort? Rezeki.

Allah knows best. Hold on to this principle. Then you'll realize you have nothing in this world without His power. I believe Allah has the best plan for each human being. It is only matter of timing. Do not blame yourself if your achievement is not as excellent as your effort does. Allah might save the best for you for some other times ☺

I evaluate myself based on my effort and then I leave the rest to Allah. My effort is always not as good as others who are always trying their very best on getting best results. However, that's not sth that bothers me that much. I understand myself.. very well. If I really have a passion on sth, I'll make sure I try my best to achieve that passion. But even if I lose passion on sth, I'll make sure to have a satisfying outcome after all.

I look like I'm not trying my best at sth but I ended up proving myself I can perform better than that. I look like I'm so lazy to do revision and prefer sleeping over studying but I actually taking leisure time before struggling myself in burning the midnight oil. I look like someone who has no talent in everything but has anyone notice my strengths? People keep on looking down on me telling me what's so good having great position but ended up not doing my best in studies? But have they saw me trying so hard doing revision at the very end corner of library alone almost everyday? People sometimes say that I am no good to be born as a leader but how can you say that when you are not at the state of worried, panic and also sad to be chosen as a leader? You, people. You are not in the situation to say those things.

If I have to make a judgement about myself, it would all based on effort. Effort that will satisfy myself. Even if others are not satisfy with it, I'm okay. I know I did great. Even if my great is not in the same level as yours but I don't mind. I know with the effort I put in myself, I can do better than you expected. I can perform better which is beyond your expectation. I acknowledge my skills and passion. Even if that's not convincing in your eyes, I will always remind myself not to be proud of myself until I get myself being able to convince people around me.

I am someone who would sacrifice my basic knowledge and choose passion instead. Sacrificing knowledge you learnt for a long time is not an easy decision to do guys but I've made it anyway. My effort leads me this way. For me, nothing is difficult unless your unwillingness are high up there. Lower it down and go through it. Protect your future with your decision. Not with insincerity. To work with a sincerity is to work with a passion on it. You gotta be strong even if there' is such a heavy task to do, you can surely complete it no matter what. That's the combination of effort and passion.

I get used to teamwork since young. I have the courage to go to an interview and being able to be listed as a prefect, as an exco, a scholar.. everything requires effort. My effort tells me to work hard and be determined until I succeeded. Succeed till the end. Not halfway. Not even a quarter. No matter how hard it is, how troublesome I would be, it does not matter as long as I achieve my target. I'll get used to it anyway. Teamwork is essential in working days. How can I not wish myself to have that kind of experience? It is all about effort and how you get through it. It's true that nobody's perfect but effort proves you that you might not be perfect but you can be someone that is almost perfect.

I live with errors here and there but that does not matter because I am someone who learn from mistake. My effort teaches me not to feel down when you got 0 on test because you'll work hard with double effort later on. Yes, that's so true. Double effort. Early mistakes is nothing because you will end up completing everything with satisfying outcomes. Everytime I need to get my work done, I would never be afraid of mistakes because I know I've done my best already and if there's mistake, I will surely learn from it, and correct it or make a better one. Despite of having lots of personal problems in mind, I still be able to focus on sth which needs me to be the centre of attraction. I did my best and I appreciate my effort for trying my best at it. This is my effort. My effort is the keywords, the main thing that I use to evaluate myself.

I dislike it when someone disses me saying I'm so not into this or that.. saying I am not trying my best like they are currently in my shoes experiencing what I feel, understand my thoughts and perceptions I have in my mind and so on. Like what I've said, I know myself. If that's what you think what can I do? I would never waste my time to explain everything and beg for your understanding. Last but not least, appreciate your effort and let Allah do the rest. 

Ideal type of man #31DaysBloggingChallenge

My dream guy would be someone who is and always be ready to improve his knowledge on how to be a good Imam to me ☺

Someone who has effortless charm. Hiks.

Dark-skinned. Because I'm not bright, not a dark-skinned either.

A guy who is a very father or brother like and who is somewhat protective but sweet.

A guy who is confident but not rude. His opinions, thoughts and perceptions must be within the line. I lost my respect to guys who easily voice out his opinions or thoughts without thinking further about the impact on everyone else.

I prefer a 'practical' guy compared to 'theory' kind of guy. That's why I adore someone who works in a uniform or guys who play sports.

A guy with a height of 165cm and above. Bcs I'm a tall girl who loves wearing heels and wedges. Ahaha.

A guy who is not sensitive and not short-tempered. Fyi, I take long time to prepare myself before going out somewhere so the guy needs to be patient mentally and physically 😎

A guy who can give more space and respect my privacy but loves and cares for me more than he loves himself.

A guy who understands my career and passion.

A guy who cares deeply about me and never leave me no matter what.

A guy who is faithful to me, who will never cheat on me and always proud of me being his wife and the mother to his kids.

A guy who will always be ready to listen to my stories and nags.

A guy who works hard to become a better person in every aspect of life.

A guy who realize that effort and hard work is the key to a successful life. This type of man for sure does not have the word 'give up' in his life dictionary and of course would never give up on me :')

A guy who would never date me for fun but ask me for marriage instead.

My biggest fear #31DaysBloggingChallenge

My all-time-fear would be trust issues. I find myself so difficult on believing in people words. You know what type of words I meant. They are all sweet talkers. I dislike the way they easily approach and persuade others with sweet words to be close with them. Even though they are sincere and really want to befriend with each other but I find it somewhat annoying. I've felt this once and I was dumbfounded after knowing the truth. Is it too easy to make me feel stupid in believing those words and take me for granted? Was I childish enough for staying and giving second chance after truth has been revealed? That was so rude and narrow-minded man.

I feel thankful for having such good friends around me who keep on motivating me and help me to overcome the matters but not with trust issues. I read an article about trust issues and it needs me, myself, my willingness to overcome it. Not that easy, bruh. Girls.. You know how hurt it is to realize that you are the backup options among other options for an answer? I was badly hurt but I couldn't show it to others even my family. I have to act like nothing happened and guess whattt! Surprisingly, I did! I've succeeded! I keep myself busy y'all. That's the best way.

But trust issues is something that I still cannot deal with. Wherever I go, whenever it is.. it will always play on my mind. I can never expect how long this will end but hopefully soon. I really wish for a happy marriage with a perfect husband who never makes me feel insecure with or without reason. I want to feel safe by his side. I want to feel like I'm the only one in his heart. I want him to be proud having me as his wife and the mother of his kids. Ya Allah, please grant me this rezeki in the future..

This evening a news of a married couple was being spread here and there and it is related to trust issues. It is about a pregnant wife is being neglected by her unfaithful husband.  However, the wife make a statement that everything posted was all fake and she hopes that public will not make it worse. I find this as something that people should be aware of. Not just married couple, but everyone.. everyone who need to understand that love is worth it.

I'm not trying to be emotional but what if the news is actually true? I mean, this matter becomes hot topics among married couples all over the world recently. Many of them experienced this already and perhaps more couples to come in the future. Urgh. How can you easily cheat on your wife while she is suffering on pregnancy and it is your baby??!!! Remember, you may be unfaithful to your partner now but soon, you will never what is going to happen. You might feel the same way too. You might face the same thing. You might been hurt the same way as she did. 

Trust each other and live a happy life. Be concern and tolerate to each other in whatever problems you guys are facing. Consider partner's feelings. Try to overcome trust issues between both of you, married couple and be aware of anything that may harm your marriage and your family. Protect your love. Isn't marriage is the symbolic of love? So what on earth do you think you are doing? You are not even protecting but leaving scars. Even a school child know the simple meaning of love. Sadly, you prefer to highlight the definition of scars even more..

This is why I am still afraid in trusting someone and his words.. I need a 24/7 relationship without the need of feeling insecure around him. And you, the owner of fake account, how can you play with other feelings? Others life? Don't disturb their happy life! They are going to have baby soon. Let's just pray for the best..

Blogging essentials #31DaysBloggingChallenge

As you all can see, my blog is one of the simplest and unattractive blog among bloggers. I admit it, really. Actually, I did few editing before, and full editing in my previous blog but one day, I was trying to change the look of my blog to get new feels and to show the other side of me but I don't have time for it. I changed it in the middle of mid sem break which requires me to study a lot for upcoming tests.. that is why I wasn't able to do full editing and yea, this is the temporary look I chose.

1) ATTRACTIVE DESIGN AND CREATIVE LOOK

Design is the most important thing to make a blog look great as whole. A whole here includes the content and public perception towards blog owner. As for example, if the blog has musical touch in it, that shows the blog owner really loves the aura and passion towards music. If that person is using red or striking colour, he or she is someone with great determination and brave. Agree? 

2) APPEALING HEADLINES

Catchy post title would probably attract readers to read the content. This is what magazines publication company always take part in. They put such a shocking headline as highlight but actually the content does not that surprising y'all. Well, that's what we called as marketing strategy. I still remember one shocking headline I've read during high school, it was "Ina Naim buang seluar" lol I thought about sth teenagers aren't supposed to imagine at that time but when mama read the content, she told me that "Ina Naim dah taknak pakai seluar lepas ni, dia nak berubah pakai kain je memanjang" Ohmaigod. What a great headline! 

3) MEANINGFUL AND USEFUL CONTENT

From my point of view, besides doing honest post about blog owners' feelings, thoughts and preferences there should be certain posts which need to be meaningful and useful for readers to come back and read the next posts. Even though there are topics or news which have already been spread to whole world and there are many people keep on voicing out their opinions towards them, you can still be one of them. We never know there are people out there who will read your post and consider your opinions right? Oh and tbh, one thing that bloggers are supposed to do is writing from the heart. Our heart speaks very well in the language of mind ☺

4) INSERT PHOTO IN POSTS

I believe that to make a story more convincing, people would love to relate it with few imaginations. Photos are indeed the best imagination a writer could give to readers. As a blogger, I sometimes get ideas to blog by looking at pictures in tumblr or pinterest. Just now, a picture about honesty reminds me of my friends and I'm going to update quick post about friendship later!

5) INTERACT WITH READERS

This one is a must. Readers have their own preference whether they liking the post or they might not satisfy with the writing. We all need to be open minded and let them judge. I would love it if people drop by my blog and comments because I feel appreciated. Wow, people read what I wrote! Greet our readers cheerfully, express how thankful we are and accept their wise opinions. This is the key to become a better writer. (I'm so sorry I do not put any chatbox in my blog YET. I would be very thankful if you guys drop by and leave comments at latest post of mine)

I'm so sorry for not being able to make my blog look fascinating like others. I would like to go for a vintage look but I am stuck between vintage and plain striped that looks more matured. InshaAllah, soon. I prefer writing compared to editing right now 😁